withdrawal

I went in to my clubhouse yesterday and was very disappointed to see that the master copy I'd made, and the instructions on printing it were completely unheeded. I guess perhaps it should not be a surprise considering I am the only person in the place who even knows what good typography looks like. *shrug*
Made me think better of being so loyal to it, and to just make use of its services and let the inertia of the environment reassert itself. I dread coming back some weeks hence and finding that the indoor plants are once again returned to their prior sad state, and yet another mortality in the fishtank, but I should just let it go, and focus on cultivating things which are directly feeding me, like my relationships with my work-colleagues and my on home and it's untended garden and my body and it's poor but improving state of health. All I can really do apart from directly attending to the living things in that place is hope that someone noticed what I was doing and noticed the change it wrought but it is not a hope I should put great stock in.

I have now started a new brew, I overestimated the volume of the vat by 2 litres, then found the volume climbed another 6 litres or so when the sugar was added so I had to draw out 2 litres again before it would be safe for it to start fermenting. The froth at the top is fairly minimal, and the top of the fluid level is very near it but it's not coming out of the vapour lock. The rate of bubbling is quite intense and the sweet smell of fermenting apples fills the air around it.
I put 9 kilograms of brewing sugar into the brew, 2kg of dextrose and 7kg of 'brewers sugar' which is about half half corn sugar and sucrose. Last brew I included some honey and used brown sugar which I am not sure was good or not, the results of this next brew will show whether brown sugar is better or dextrose/maltodextrin/sucrose. In any case, the previous brew was about 60L and I put in 6 kilograms of sugar, the beverage which resulted was decent but to my estimation not much more than 5% alcohol/volume and I really want something with a bit more of a kick than that, so a brew with 50% more sugar should theoretically land me around the 7-8% mark that I desire.

I have decided to cease my efforts to contribute to the Clubhouse now, I am going to erase the sections of the wiki that I had started. I think I may cook up some kind of web based management application but I have to dream up a purpose for doing so.
I don't know if there is much hope of me actually finding members for the Monastic Order of Chaos, but perhaps I should work on developing the financial side of it, creating an accounting system as a web-based application, learning how the taxation rules actually work and what they entitle me to claiming.
I am also going to start saving money up now. Last two pays I have got I spent too much in one go. I did kinda need to do some of the spending, but much of it was unneccessary, things like credit for my phone, a white LED keychain lamp, and various other things which added up to me running short before I was paid again, and now again I have accidentally paid out too much into my mother's account and spent probably a little too much getting a brew running. I can't really rue this too badly, I'm not exactly in poverty anymore, things are better than they have been in a very long time.
However next pay I am not going to go and splash out on a skateboard as I was thinking about doing, I will let the money pile up until the pay after before I consider doing that. I'm going to have to shell out about 500 to really get equipped for skateboarding and tell the truth I have greater need at present for another three work outfits, a lighter pair of shoes and a nice set of 6 light white socks so the coming summer heat does not make me sweat overmuch.

Overall things are going well in my life at the moment. I am starting to become much more stable now and progress is really starting to happen.