Nutted Out

Well, I spent the better part of today tweaking my Tor server settings and puzzling about a mysterious loss of internet that seems to happen to the modem. The Tor website talks about how Tor uses a lot of connection streams and this can push the limits of modems... It does occur to me that perhaps the modem is creaking under the weight of even my measly little Tor node's traffic, since it has to do NAT and thus must have to keep a track of all the open streams... I don't know... I suppose if I wake up tomorrow morning and again find that the modem has locked up then I'll have to quit trying to run a tor server and try and figure out wtf I'm gonna do with this 60gb/month quota I will have to pay 20 dollars to reduce if it is beyond my needs. Fingers crossed I don't have to worry about it and tomorrow I wake up and everything is functioning as it is supposed to be functioning.

I have been drinking a fair bit of commercial cider this last few days, and I swear that my homebrew cider wasn't making me feel as craply as I am feeling at the moment. I haven't been seriously irritable in ages until a couple of days ago and today again I'm getting very irritated. I'm keeping myself from cracking up but I can't help but feel that there's something toxic in those drinks which is making me irritable, some intestinal irritant or something which is letting the evil gluten peptides through the gate again... Sodium bisulphite is the main unwanted thing in there... maybe that's something that it does in the intestines, I know that sulphur dioxide, which is evolved from it (used to preserve the colour of dried apples and apricots) is a known lung irritant and can cause asthma attacks.

The moron, who I stupidly let rip me off in so many ways, has set me back a bit on my schedule to get back onto the zinc/ascorbic acid thing, but only by a few days, I will be getting a tidy $300 pay from the new job I'm doing on wednesday or thursday or something, top priority is the following set of supplements (with daily doses):

Zinc 45mg
Ascorbic Acid 2000mg
Magnesium 400mg
B complex (fairly high doses)
Omega 3 fatty acids (flax oil most likely)
Glutamine 2000mg

Of all the things I can waste my money on, these seem to be the most important, and of them, zinc is probably the achilles heel of my metabolic system, when I supplement it, my protein digestion improves and overall digestion improves as does my appetite. Once I am actually absorbing more from my food I get more energy and focus.

Hopefully once I'm finally on a routine program of dosing these supplements I will get further improvements although I'm still needing some kind of stimulant, at this point I have about 200-300mg of caffeine a day, which works ok but I'm not glad about the stress on my kidneys both from diuresis and uric acid formation. I need to get myself a good water bottle, one which doesn't grow fungi and get funky like the stupid Brita ones, and start drinking regularly. My workplace has a nice chilled water dispenser and it is a bit odd that I don't go to the toilet more than once a day, I really should be going a few times if I'm drinking enough water, otherwise my blood will definitely be dirtier than it ideally should be.