Netcomm NB5 Nitwits! Plus Caffeine!

Well, according to a chap who has been hacking the software inside the modem (it's based on a linux kernel 2.4.17) the problem with the modem is not overheating or bugs, it's inadequate memory. It only has the capacity to track 512 connections, and once they are full it refuses to open any more. I'm not sure if that is entirely 100% the case as if that were true then surely closing the programs would restore function, but perhaps when this buffer is full it just refuses to do anything at all with them. If this is correct there is only two things which would improve the situation, one, for netcomm to install a bit more memory by default and up the connection tracking limit, or to cut out as much fluff from the running software when it is on so that more space can be dedicated to actual modem functionality. *sigh*

I have started to again suffer from the leaky gut problem, sleepiness during the day and depression, lethargy and irritability, nowhere near as bad as I used to get but it was far enough below what I have become accustomed to, however, for the time being it is nothing that about 4 cups of espresso can't help.

I have become a bit belligerant in part to do with what I have realised about the emotional/psychic dynamics discussed in previous posts, and in part because I'm drinking so much coffee I think. It's reminding me a little of what happened when I was on ritalin, and I'm a little concerned that I will lose my subtlety too much in the process and end up causing a fight... Well, I know that caffeine messed with my head in the past, but at that time it was combined with emotional stress and cannabis. Hopefully caffeine is not the primary cause, I guess my continuing to use it as a substitute for proper medication will reveal whether this is the case or not.

It makes me want to do something about getting the other medication but I'm still really in no position to do that, however, I should think that is on the horizon, I have some ideas about how I'm going to do that... Down the track, perhaps, or perhaps not. It really depends. If I can cope with using the situation as it stands, I think I will stick with that. What concerns me the most is that I will experience the emotional exhaustion and irritability more frequently as I go along but it could just be a function of my digestive malfunction reasserting itself. If I do get worn down to breakdown level I'm gonna have to have a serious think about this because it's just not right, not right at all precious.